Getting into the right routine with two in two different schools has taken a couple of weeks…that’s why I haven’t been writing.
I really missing them being home.
Especially the little guy.
I get time with baby girl a few days a week.
I have free time that I was desperately wishing for, but I find myself wondering what to do with it.
I have cabinets that I need to finish painting.
I have doctors appointments, haircuts, and brow waxes that I should get scheduled.
I have crafts I want to do.
I have exercise I want to add to my routine.
I have Nordstrom Notes screaming at me to spend them.
Instead of doing any of these things, I think…
- if i craft and do something fun, then i am not getting work done
- if i paint cabinets and clean then i am not spending time on myself
- if i go to the appointments it just spends money and time that i really don’t want to spend
- if i go exercise then i am not doing anything that really needs to get done
Really, my main concern is that I will not be doing the “right” things with my free time…whatever the “right” things are.
If the house isn’t perfectly clean (which it is not) did I fail at cleaning?
If the laundry isn’t done will somebody get upset that their favorite “ballerine” or shorts are not clean?
If I don’t spend time doing things that will make me happy (crafting, exercising, blogging, taking photos) will I just be frustrated that I don’t have enough free time?
I just count the minutes until I get to go pick up my kids.
And, then there is not enough time in the day to spend with them.
And, by the time we get them to bed, I am exhausted and ready to go the bed to start all over the next day.
The answer is just do SOMETHING!
But I get wracked with guilt that my choices will displease somebody.
I’m just writing…so, I’d better go do something.
home is…counting the minutes.